The Waiting is the Hardest Part

Ooooooooooooooh, the waiting, and waiting, and waiting . . .

It's really starting to hit me now. Jack turned 8 months old 10 days ago, and my mother's heart is really beginning to ache for him. I've tried to put that feeling off as long as I could, because I remember how hard it is to think about your child being on the other side of the world in someone else's care. I am SO thankful for his foster mother and the love she is giving him, but at the same time, he's my son and I want him to be here so I can feed him, rock him, play with him. It's so hard to think of all the moments I'm missing out on.

I feel nesting coming on again . . . I'm ready to get his room ready, even though that's going to make it worse. :( I just want this process to be over! We are sending him a "talking picture frame" with a picture of our family and our voices saying hello to him. We did the same thing with Lily. We hope it will help him recognize our voices when he comes home. Until then, we'll be here waiting, and waiting, and waiting . . .

We're Legal!

We got Jack's "legal documents" yesterday. It's mostly in Korean, but we still cried. :) This isn't the ultimate final age waiver from Korea, but it's certainly a step in the right direction. We have to believe at this point that Korea will issue the age waiver so we can adopt him.

So, the next step is the potentially most frustrating one . . . waiting for immigration approval. PLEASE PRAY that our paperwork will go through the bureaucratic system quickly and smoothly, and that it won't sit in a forgotten pile in someone's In Box. PLEASE PRAY that we can secure the funds for the final (and largest) payment soon. PLEASE PRAY that we can get him home before he turns 1. Do I dare hope to pray that he'll be here for Mother's Day???

Waiting . . .

Don't have anything new to post. I'm just sitting here at my desk, looking at the pictures of my son, and missing him! I can't think of any better Mother's Day gift than for Jack to be home, in my arms, for Mother's Day! I love you, Jack!

Your Mommy